Thursday, May 31, 2007

Online Friends

People who aren't online, or who don't meet people online don't understand the relationship that can be built by 2 complete & total strangers. We may never meet face to face, but that makes our friendship no less important then the person i have known 10 years.

When you 1st "meet" both of you are prolly a bit guarded, as ya are complete strangers!! But there is something about this interface that makes ya open up to each other, explore deeper the person & not just the body, face, external pieces. The person you get to meet may not even be known to the outside world. The person everyone else knows may be this rich, secure, person who seems to have it all together. You meet the true person, the little insecure person that couldnt find their nose on their face!!

You chat, you talk, you cry, you laugh. Sometimes you even get to "meet" their children & grandchildren. Sometimes they are the best friend you have in this whole world. People who have never experienced this, just dont get it.


I have quite a few online friends, who I would do anything for!! One of them, Anne, just left this world to continue on to the summerland. She had had surgery, minor surgery from my understanding, a few weeks ago. I sent her a funny joke & a beautiful friendship poem in hopes to cheer her. Her last words to me were "thank you my friend, I cherish you too" Then just like that she is gone. An email from another lets me in on this bad news. I cry. I hurt. I ache. I think of what I have lost, what the world has lost, & what The God/dess has gained! This is dedicated to her.

Sometimes we think we have tomorrow,
to say you mean the world to me.
Sometimes we don't realize,
tomorrow is just a dream.

Nobody wants to think
about what if I die today,
it could all be gone in a blink.

I will tell them later
how proud I am of them.
Im just to busy now with work
cant do it on a whim.

It's ok they will know
what I really meant to say.
I will have tomorrow to do
what I put off today.

Tomorrow never comes,
cause you always wake to today.
So tomorrow's business
has no excuse to be in the way!

The child, the friend, the mother,
the sister, brother, father...
they know how I feel,
so why even bother?

They know I love them
they must know
they mean the world to me.

Why do we put off saying
the important things, like
you made a difference, you were special,
or you changed my life.

You were precious
to my life, to my power.
As I search within
in this darkest hour.

I seek to find
the last time
I said I love you
I need you, thank you
You made me feel important,
special, precious, wanted, needed.

I hope I let you know
just how much you gave me
during my highest highs & deepest lows.

Go on girl, you fly high, sing a song
dance the dance, meet the angels
take your place in Avalon.
You left your mark on the world
I can only hope I do the same when I am gone.

I quietly whisper as you pass by
you left your mark
upon my heart
all I can ask is why?

Your spirit soars
as mine is cut
to the core.

You are better off then we.
I only hope we let you know
How precious you were, but more importantly,
How better off we are, to have known
the special lady, with her heart in Avalon....

Godspeed to you,
Lady Celtyc Charm....Anne Gendron

Love, Light & Much laughter
Raime

I cry not for Anne, as she is in a much happier place. I cry for myself, for the loss I feel, the hole left inside. I cry for her family & friends who feel this loss. I cry for the world, who never got to know her. We shall meet face to face one day, in summerland....

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Schools Out

Schools out, schools out,
Teachers let the mules out.
No more reading, no more books
No more teachers dirty looks!!

Nooooooooooooo now its time for........

Kid: "mom im hungry"

Me: Go fix you something

Kid:"theres nothing to eattttttttt"

Me: I Just bought groceries 3 days ago!

Kid: "we ate all that already."

Me: yall ate all that fruit, veggies & snacks already? go eat some cereal, make you a sandwich.

Kid: "I want some french fries"

or this one.........

Kid: "I'm boreddddddddddd"

me: Clean your room, its a pig sty!

Kid: "do a chore? are you kidding me? I want to play. Can we go get some video games?"

Oh my all time favorite.......

Kid: "mom I need money"

Me: Get a job!!

Kid: "I can't Im to young."

Me: when I was your age, I made my own money babysitting. I wasn't handed everything to me, go mow yards, wash the car, wash the dogs, think of some way to EARN it.

Kid: "Manual labor??? Aren't there child labor laws??"

*sigh* Counting the days till School opens again, & its not over until the 24th! Think I will have to find some good drugs (like prozac, xanax, or something stronger) to get thru this summer! Teens make the worst summer pets.

2 teens for rent cheap!!

I'm Just Saying.....

Tuesday, May 8, 2007

Kids, Kids, & family

Hi I am the mom of 4 kids, yes KIDS. baby billy goats!! yall may call them children, but you don't live with them. They eat, break, & destroy everything in their way. I have another kid, but he's my husband, so I can't take the blame there I didnt birth him! hehe I also have 3 grandchildren, they haven't turned into kids yet, but they are from my gene pool, so I expect it any day now.

2 of my kids have moved out, tho one wants to come back home! My husband has promised me when they ALL move out, we will relocate to a tropical island, leave no forwarding address, & make em hunt US down like we have had to do with them plenty of times. (I dont really see this happening, as my children are so special to me!! specially when they sleep hehe but its a good idea!)

The 2 at home are 13 & 14... ahhh the social life, the no responsibilities, the its ok my mom will pay. Oh & don't forget the fighting. Sometimes i want to put a boxing ring in the back yard, & let them have at it. I promise to feed & support the winner!

Sometimes I think what the hell was I thinking having babies? I had a life, a nice life, a great body, a party every day, no curfew, no responsibilities, no one counting on me... then BAM some sperm donor took serious what I just wanted for fun, then there is baby number 1! I don't use the term sperm donor loosely either... When we found out I was pregnant, he was gone quicker then a whore in church! Even left skid marks! Still denies he is the father, If only he knew how bad he has hurt his daughter. If only he knew what a wonderful, fantastic, loving, & beautiful person she has become... well, his loss.

Not that I would give any of it up, it has made me who I am today. Without children, my life would be lacking, lacking pain, agony, heartache, anxiety, panic, unexpected ER trips, love, light, laughter, watching my caterpillars turn into butterflies, oh & so much more! I was born to be a mom.... now if only my kids where born to be kids! LOL I mean its a helluva roller coaster ride, but i have yet to meet a roller coaster I didnt like!!

In this blog, I will try to write about life love & laughter. I may also include the state of the world from my point of view & fair warning, I am not now, nor have i ever been... Politically correct! I say it as I see it, my truth. Tho yours may differ, try to understand this is my truth, my opinion, right or wrong it is what it is.... I'm also new to all this, so cut me slack, give me tips, or kudos.... I'm sure I will get better the more i write, right?

whatever, I'm just saying.........

Love light & laughter always